L'Arc~en~Ciel - Seventh Heaven


no matter which way you look, Hyde is hot and cute.

gosh... Hyde fever x________x *heart eyes*

Labels: Hyde, L'Arc~en~Ciel, music, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
4:29 PM

MOOD: BLANK
LISTENING TO: -

alright, it was too late to update yesterday, so i wrote today instead.
yesterday evening, as promised, i went to Twister for a haircut~

kor reached about 10 mins later. his friends was already having their haircut. when i saw the hair dresser(who kor was his regular customer), i had the greatest - not really - shock in my life -.-. that guy, which i forgot his name(let's call him K-san), looked like Zhi Jie =.=. even the way they spoke are quite similar, but K-san is definitely a more refine man, lol.

i took his advise and he trim the upper portion of my hair as i fidget, unable to forget the fact that he looked like him(lol). he instructed another female hairdresser to wash my hair. as she pour the peppermint smelling shampoo on my head, we chatted. i didnt know that the hairdressers here were so friendly. my impression of hair dressers in salons is rather... hmmmm. she asked me questions like whether i came here before, where do i usually cut my hair and how old i am. they were often surprised when they heard that i'm 15. hmph. this made me wanna grow old faster.

as expected, she asked me if i reborned my hair~ maybe i should track how many hair dressers asked me that question(the fact is that i had never reborn my hair, but they are so straight that people often thought that i did) =v=.
peppermint~

after drying, kor returned. he was surprised that my hair had been cut cos it looked as if that nothing was done, LOL. then i started to ponder and K-san came back. he passed me a book and i looked through it... when i flipped to pages with short hair, kor went "dont commit suicide, sister" xDDD. thanks to him. if he wasnt there, i might have cut my hair short =___=... and cry at home.

K-san said that if you want a drastic change for your hair, the best choice is to cut it short, cut bangs or perm it. short and perms are impossible. i stared at kor and the book while K-san attended other customers(mainly kor's friends. i think they're treating there as their home...). HMMMMMMM, i went. and HAH, FINE. FINE FINE FINE. RISK IT.

when K-san came back again, he cut my fringe~~ he reassured me that for that small face of mine, even if my fringe was extremely short, it'd still look good(i hope he was not lying...). i shut my eyes tight as if that my head was on the gallows... and when he's done, kor said it didnt look wierd (although i was feeling a bit embarrassed)! if i wasnt mistaken, i heard K-san saying that "其实我一开始就想帮你剪这样的发型了^__^".... ~___~;;;????

ahhhh, bangs, bangs, on this day, when i'm 15, i cut bangs~~







原来亲密的接触，还是会让人脸红心跳。
哇 x_____x~~~~~~~~

Labels: random

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
2:45 PM

MOOD: RELIEVED.
LISTENING TO: SECRET GARDEN - GACKT

i was checking my email and saw this message from doreen. and lol, it's hilarious, just read it~




1. Losing all your friends
Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend.
Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends."

2. Brother wanted
Small boy wrote to Santa Claus,"send me a brother"....
Santa wrote back, "SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"....

3. Meaning of WIFE
Husband asks, "Do you know the meaning of WIFE? It means 'Without Information Fighting Everytime'!"
Wife replies, "No, it means 'With Idiot For Ever'!!!"

4. Importance of a period
Teacher: "Do you know the importance of a peri od?"!
Kid: "Yeah, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got a heart attack & our driver ran away."

5. Confident vs. confidential
A young boy asks his Dad, "What is the difference between confident and confidential?"
Dad says, "You are my son, I'm confident about that. Your friend over there, is also my son, that's confidential!"

6. Anger management?
Husband: "When I get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?"
Wife: "I clean the toilet."
Husband: "How does that help?"
Wife: "I use your toothbrush."

the first and third wasnt that funny, it's kinda normal. but the second, forth and fifth sent me LOL-ing xDDDDDDD.

puuuffffff. i just finished my mother thongue O level just now...
so that marks the end of the secondary 3 basic mother tongue O level exams.
it was... much of a breeze. i was kinda confident.

and bloody hell.... Physics SPA on thursday =.=. how can you treat me like this~~
PS: i dont have time to complete my new blogskin, so... hmmmmmm. let's see about it.



*EDIT*

YEA, SAW THIS ON MUSIC JAPAN+

GACKT Reveals Real Age!
2009-11-08

The singer GACKT has finally
revealed his real age. It happened during the press conference held in Tokyo for
the stage production '眠狂四郎無頼控 / Nemuri Kyoshiro Burai-hikae' in which he plays
the lead role for the first time. At the beginning of a video segment
introducing the outline of the project, his age was given as 'to turn 37 years
old in 2010'. Afterwards during the Q&A session reporters asked if it was
the first time GACKT told how old he was. He smiled wryly while replying "A long
while ago at a concert, on a whim I said I was born in 1540. Somehow that became
my official year of birth. Since then I couldn't find an opportunity to correct
it. I wasn't keeping my age a secret or anything."

As the main character
Nemuri Kyoshiro of the 'Nemuri Kyoshiro' series GACKT will appear in various
media. The stage production written by Koyama Kundo is the first in line of the
'NEMURI×GACKT PROJECT'. After the theater version of 'Nemuri Kyoshiro', the
combined character 'NEMURI×GACKT' will be featured in manga, anime, video-games
and film.

From summer GACKT has been in the process of losing 10 kilos
for his role. "Up until the summer I had been building up my body in order to
stay healthy during the tour. But I've put on too much muscle for my role, so
I've since shed 5 kilos. I'm trying to lose 5 more kilos to make a body sharp as
steel, one that will hurt you if you touch. Just like a swordsman [Nemuri
Kyoshiro is a master with katana]."

GOTTCHA. YEAH. WE WERE RIGHT ABOUT HIS AGE. stupid wiki refused to admit. but now, with this reliable source, G is officially known as 36! but seriously, i rather not know his age. i remembered once watching a variety show which they reported Gackt as "an artist whose age is unknown", i had this weird feeling~~ like "haha! no one knows it =___=" or something. eefffffheffffhh.

He smiled wryly while replying "A long while ago at a concert, on a whim I said I was born in 1540. Somehow that became my official year of birth. Since then I couldn't find an opportunity to correct it. I wasn't keeping my age a secret or anything."
HAH. LIAR. you're enjoying it =__=. lol.

Labels: Gackt, random

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
1:16 PM

MOOD: TOUCHED T___T
LISTENING TO: -


hmph.... i know tomorrow's O, and i shld be studying now, but i cant help it but to share this...
even though we are strangers from 2 island and met by chance, sharing the same love, i was really touched to see Lady K's email. seriously, the way she wrote, sends this warm feeling down into my heart.

erm... think this shldn't be shared? but since she had returned to japan, and the fan tour has officially ended, i think it's fine :).
kind Belle had provided the translation for us, but i'll just leave it in pure jap.

P.S: regretting that i should have wrote a proper letter. ARGHHHHHH.

ベルさん

先日（せんじつ）、シンガポールのフェアモントホテルでお会いした如月（きさらぎ）です。

覚えていらっしゃいますか？

遅くなりましたが、あなたたちからお預かりしたファンレター、たしかにGACKTさんに送りました。

たしかに着いたと確認（かくにん）もとれましたので安心（あんしん）してくださいね。

GACKTさんはきっとみんなのお手紙を読んでくださいましたよ。

これからもGACKTさんを応援（おうえん）してくださいね。

親愛（しんあい）なるシンガポールのGACKTファンのかたたちへ

日本の如月より

PS.約束（やくそく）守りました。

the last sentence (PS.) touched me. i'm so sorry, Kisaragi-san. when you left, i was still doubting you. after G left, i thought that you had forgotten about our promise. i'm so sorry. i still remember that night which all of us met. your eyes and your words were so trueful. you kept telling us that it's a promise you will fufill for us.

"Yasoku." i could still picture your expression when you said this in Japanese to us.

i really hope that we can meet again...

Labels: Gackt

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
12:21 PM

Hyde Meets Megumi Oishi

1. .... Hyde is... so cute. especially.... at that "Telephone number O_O?!" and getting hit at the end...

Season's call




.... i think i'm falling for Hyde.

Labels: Hyde, music, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
4:12 PM

ahhh, AOI'S HOT.

THIS IS LIKE, AIDHEHGEIHLHKGLJJFLA.

this band is call Karasu, likely formed in mid october this year(there's seriously not much info about them, so just becos i'm too lazy to find). why am i posting abou them?

look. look closely.
i mean the 2nd guy from right. yup, that golden hair colour dude.

He Is
HIROTO. HIROPON.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

members:
Vocal: Tatsurou (MUCC)
Guitar: Hiroto (Alice Nine)
Guitar: Mizuki (Sadie)
Bass: Dunch (Jealkb)
Drums: Kenzo (Ayabie)

hey dude, dont understand what's happening. i mean, what's the point of forming this band *frowns hard* O__O? and god, MUCC vocal -.-. sorry, but i'm seriously not a MUCC fan. plus, the rest of the band members are generally in jrock gerne, but MUCC is much closer to heavy metal, i suppose?? okay, i'll just be frank, I DONT LIKE TATSUROU AS KARAUS' VOCAL. lol. but it's so cute to see alice nine, jealkb and ayabie together xDDD.

now i understand why hiropon had his golden hair back~~

click here for KARASU official myspace.

a little preview of their song:
Lastica




and alice nine live on Nico Nico!! 10.30.09
tora is the MC, and hiroto and saga is the guest~

Part 1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZQrdw_b8zM
Part 2 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UgkY1-oM4nw
Part 3 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEkyepm_jQk
Part 4 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bi_HRftyY4c
Part 5 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B27coqAC48M
Part 6 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8_Xu1rX6Xc
Part 7 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEb1-7iUQwE
Part 8 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ENFoVlBlNs

no, super cute tora talking non-stop. saga X hiroto~
didnt watch the whole thing cos it bothers me when i dont understand :/. hope that someone can upload a subbed version~~



*edit*
kimi no tameni dekiru koto



look at the fucking icon on the top right hand corner.
channel.... 8?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Labels: alice nine., Gackt, images, Karasu, live, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
11:22 AM

this man is loved.







G's talkshow... is...
watch it.

part 1

1. gosh, i want the creep too...

part 2




with Tsuyoshi (sub)

part 1


part 2


part 3

Labels: Gackt, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
6:02 PM

Created after Egoiste,Chanel Egoiste Platinum Pour Homme
was developed as a lighter fragrance than the original. Chanel Egoiste Platinum
Pour Homme symbolises energy, light and manliness with a classical fougere
blend.

Chanel Egoiste Platinum for Men is a fresh, classical fougere
scent that has a classical top notes of rosemary, petit grain and neroli, which
centre around a traditional masculine heart of lavender mixed with green notes
of galbanum and sage. These sensual notes are based over a warm woody end note
with hints of tree moss, vetiver and labdanum.

i want this, BADLY.

D:

Labels: Platinum Egoiste, random

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
3:22 PM

MOOD: DISCOURAGED
LISTENING TO: -


credits: http://uranus-sama.livejournal.com/1113063.html

1.11.2009 1:08PM
I havent written in a while, have I...

FORDEAR

Updating the diary for the first time in a while...
To be honest, I dont have much emotional leeway at the moment.
But I've been getting way too much mail from everyone saying that theyre worrying about me so I thought it'd be best if I updated...

I havent been able to sleep much these past 20 days.
So much stuff keeps piling up, and I was working all through the nights in Singapore too.
On top of that, this schedule continued as soon as I got home and I had no choice but to laugh... really, I died.

If you want to know what I've been up to recently here,,,
well first, we were rehearsing for Yasoukai, and then we were working on Gakuensai, and doing Platinum Box stuff,
recording singles, editing video for DVDs, editing sound for DVDs,
editing video for the Platinum Box, putting the finishing touches on the album,
filming the PV, and now rehearsing for Gakuensai. Recording new songs...
and of course there's tons of things too trivial to list,
but that's the gist of it and with all this stuff we're up working all night.

Well, at times like this, all you can do is laugh.

And since I've been working at all hours of the night since I came home from Yasoukai
I really dont have much room in my mind for anything else at the moment, you know?

But, everyone sent me pictures of their smiling faces [from Yasoukai] and without realizing it, I was laughing and diving into [them]
and it really raised my excitement level.

Everyone's facial expressions in the pictures are really great this time around.
My staff was up all night frantically getting the room ready, saying "no, not like this...
no, not like that..."
but finally in the end we achieved a nice layout that had a sense of depth to it.

While I was looking at the pictures, I was thinking things like "This kid was so nervous~~" and
"This kid couldnt quit shaking~~" and it stirred up so many memories.

Well now,,, I've got to go to rehearsal here in a minute.

If we all do this as earnestly as we can, I figure we can become the number one cover band in the world.
Although it's funny how seriously we're rehearsing other people's songs.

I think it's going to be pretty fun.

Well, it looks like the deviation value for entering this year's Gakuensai has been raised quite a bit, and I hear it was extremely competitive.
[To quote excused_early, "Since
Gakuensai is, after all, a school event, he's making an analogy between the
difficulty of winning the event tickets and the difficulty of passing a school
entrance exam."]
Well whatever becomes of it, please enjoy.

It's going to be a good feeling, I think.

Oh and by the way, as far as the girls' uniforms are concerned,
I'm partial to blazers...
And skirts are so cute.

So have fun doing that.

Oh~~ yeah, I heard someone say that there's been a lot of people asking the fanclub staff questions lately.
I think they're all concerning the uniforms,
"Are the lives this time
around restricted only to people wearing school uniforms??"
That was the question I guess.
And in that vein was the most interesting question.

"Um~~, if I wear glasses, does that count as a school uniform???"

What the heck is that!!!!

There are so many smart-alecky things I could say to that.
I mean, if you were to just throw on some glasses, the only transformation you'd be able to do would be to Ultra Seven.

Before we even get into glasses, [let's get it clear that] everyone must wear a school uniform.
And a tie.
Well I think that Camui Gakuen ties should be available for purchase on the day of the event so you should be able to buy them there.
And maybe skirts too...???
I'll let you know in the next blog entry.

Well, gotta go.

GACKT

maahhhhhh gackt, you totally disappointed me by skipping the singapore part =___=. and hell, what are you doing!!! working without resting for 20 days =______=?!?! you're not young anymore!! *g fans throws eggs*. no wonder they said that your face sunk at the airport =____=. tsktsktsk.
and LOL at the "What the heck!!!" xDDD. and yo, Gackt-san, you... sound like some old man saying that you like short skirts...
but seriously, i love japanese school uniform. but holy, their skirts are so short -.-;.

Labels: Gackt, random

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
6:22 PM

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
3:23 PM

MOOD: HAPPY
LISTENING TO: SETSUGEKKA(PREVIEW) - GACKT

G, YOU ARE, YOU ARE, SERIOUSLY.

today, i'm spamming jrock and manga stuff =V=~
manga will be in a separated post~~~ tooooo much images x___x.

i got a tag from huibing, and she uploaded the pictures!
here's it:



nice time together ^__^~~

lady K!
I SAW MY XXXXXXXXXX. TEEEHEEEEE.


ALICE NINE.:

they changed their blog layout!

SAGA

FROM THE BOOK. HEEEHEEEEEEEEEE.


SHOU

HIROTO

i dont like his short hair >__<~~

TORA

PURPLE~

NAO
ROFL. recently, nao is going for shades. he loves them =__=v.

Shou's camwhore!
conclusion:
SHOU HAS A SMALL FACE+HANDS.


for some reason, his eyes are alway red :(.

PONDORI. KAWAII.

EFFFFF. the j fans will certainly drown in happiness
to see all these in japan ;___;.

the two of them in specs!! xDDDDDDD.

shou's hair! the rest of them looked short ._.

THIS LADY IS, found this on a random site(i forgot),
BUT SHE LOOKED TOTALLY LIKE AOI
(although she's cosplaying Kanon xDDD)

AND GACKT'S NEW SONGS!!!
theme songs for Sengoku Musou 3 (Samurai Warriors 3) of the Nintendo Wii.

Gackt - Zan


Gackt - Setsugekka




Title: The End Of Silence
Release on: 9/12/09


Setsugekka is beautiful. really, really beautiful. G's voice DEFINITELY IS SUITABLE FOR BALLAD SONGS.

Labels: alice nine., Gackt, image spams, music, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
11:42 AM

MOOD: HIGH
LISTENING TO: LIFE♥2DIE - SuG

PINK masquerade PV preview



TOTALLY SHOCKED when i saw this. LOL. takeru as VAMPIRE. it's quite scary =__=... take-chan shld remain as a kawaii boy!!!!! and SHINPEI. FUIFUI.


OMIIIIGOD. SHINPEI, YOU ARE A TRANS ARENT YOU????♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
takeru vampire is not kawaii :((~


Life♥2Die PV!!!



DAMN, THESE GUYS. TO KAWAII. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

TAKERU'S SHOCKED FACE. ♥♥♥

SHINPEI: ***POINTS AND FLASHES ULTIMATE SMILE***
ME: *FAINTS*

CHIYU: CHEEZE xpppp~

YUJI ROCKER \m/

MASATO LOOKED SHY. FUIFUI.

ROFL. ROFL. TAKERU. WTF TAKERU.

WHY I LIKE SUG'S PV:
these boys are seriouslt cute. when five of
them are together, they tend to do stupid things:

CHIYU: ahhh~~ bull xO
YUJI: moooooooo~~~~
WTF. ROFL.

NIAFFFFF. OSHARE BOYS RAWKS.


*SPINS*

*SPINS*
ROFL.

kyyaaa!! shinpei is violence!!!

xDDDDDD.
I LOVE SHINPEI'S HAIR.



one kawaii shot from takeru!


these boys, i never get enough from them xDDDDDD.

Labels: image spams, Life♥2Die, PINK Masquerade, SuG

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
8:45 PM

MOOD: ROCK
LISTENING TO: -

darn, totally missed this....
i was too busy for G stuff....

and f*ck, they keep playing gaze's Flith In The Beauty live *drool*

I WILL BLOG ABOUT ALICE NINE TMR. MY POOR BISHIES, SO SORRY I NEGLECTED YOU FOR ONE WHOLE MONTH T______T

*EDIT*
Alice Nine - Comment

DID YOU SEE THIS. EUNFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. I MEAN HIROTO'S HAIR.
BLONDE. BLONDE. BLONDE.

The Beautiful Name LIVE

Labels: alice nine., V-ROCK Festival 2009, video, visual kei, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
9:09 PM

MOOD: can't explain in words
LISTENING TO: Rain - Gackt

i must had shocked everyone with my non-stopping crying this morning. if you had read my blog, you should be well awared of it. if you're interested, keep reading this post. if you think that i'm stupid after reading this post, think again.

cause i felt blessed.
he, being here, was already enough to suffocate me.


this morning was special.

you cant imagine how i felt when i saw hasurong's message about G's departure.
8:20 am. today is a tuesday. i have school.

i didnt think about going. not until when i cant control myself and messaged a friend "...他今天要走了" .
for the past 2 days, i havent touch any G stuff.
not even his songs.
but after that message, i realised that i cant just simply let things go like that.

in school, i tried calling Rong.
after countless of calls, i realised that i was constantly hanged.
"Oh shit." was the first thought that came into my mind.
the only reason why she didnt pick up....

i tried calling Viq. she picked up.
the first question was "Are you at the airport?", and she replied yes.
when i asked "Did you see him?" and she gave me the same answer,
my breath stopped.
she hanged up. i didnt blame her. if it was me, i doubt i can talk to anyone.

and crap, i just started crying.
after the long hours hunt, getting muscle cramps that hurt so much that i cant even walked properly, being paranoid about the whole matter for the past few days... this is all i get?
my legs went jelly, and i sat on the ground.

later, i found out that i may look like some kind of idiot, so i stood up again.
the tears stopped. but when i talked to him(friend) again,
the tears just came rushing out again...

i dont understand why i cried. but i just cried.
when i was thinking that "This is hell. Everything's ending. He's gone.",
i received a call from Rong.

she was definitely shocked to hear that i cried.
my nose was blocked and i cant talk properly....
she told me that yeah, they saw G. he shook hand with every of them, and signed his autograph with THEIR NAMES(To WHOWHOWHO).
he was okay with even photos, but the staff said no. (so... it was not his fault that our gifts are rejected, but you cant hate his staff too.)
just when G was about to leave, Rong asked if he could speak to me...
"Gackt-san, can you speak to her? she could not make it today..."
?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

later, she told me that he paused, and said "yes."
i guess she didnt expect that he'll agree tooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

but things was to sudden, i was still in crying mode and my NOSE IS BLOCKED, BADLY.
i heard a deep, low voice, "Hello?"
well, in crying mode, i mumbled, ".... Hello...?"
in a rush, he said "Love you"(i didnt really hear it. i only heard 2 words[extremely faint]. i could only confirmed that he said this after Rong told me that this was what everyone heard and they squeeeeee), and the phone was passed back to Rong.

...... HIS VOICE.
HIS VOICE.
you know the song "No Reason"? it sounded exactly like that.
Deep.

his voice kept echoing in my head.
just 2 sentences. just 3 words.
just a "Love you" to a fan. to one that was out of his millions, on a tuesday morning.
he would probably forget it as soon as he reached japan,
but,
"Love you."

i cried so much after that. so much that my eyes were red-shot. my classmates were shocked too, i've never cried like this in public(i think they thought that i dont have any tear glands). i had to gasp for air.
his voice was, low, deep, sexy.
it has some kind of.... magic? you get attracted to it so much just by hearing it once.
i had never met him, never see him in flesh, but i heard his voice on my sony ericsson phone...

manaasagi's words struck me(the post in lj).
she said to me that "out of so many words, he could only think of 2, LOVE YOU!" .
why didnt i think of this....?!! *tears of joy*

and when i read Belle's report... which she said
Gackt took the phone and I still melt at the image of his smile in my mind. "Hi." I had to bite my lip from squealing. "Hi," he said into the phone again. "Love you."
I DIDNT KNOW ALL THESE HAPPENED. THANKS FOR WRITING IT OUT BELLE.
thanks for the smile, even though i couldnt see; thanks for the words, all that i heard.


before listening to Jrock, i think fandom is stupid.
i really think that.
but now, others will see me as a.... crazy or mentally-retarded person. whatever.
in a concert, he may say "I Love You" to all his fans....
but just now, HE DIRECTED IT TO ME, ON THE PHONE.
WUHOOOOOOO.

i am so worried that i would forget that voice.
it echoed in my mind...

he promised that he'll be back. he promised.
and the reason, he did not mentioned.

even though i did not see him, i heard him, on the very last day, at the very last second.

the "body" cried, but i believe my "heart" did too.
next time, when i could hear his voice again,
i promise that it'd be the "heart" doing the job.

Matteruyo.

Labels: Gackt

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
3:22 PM

很奇怪的感觉。
看完我的豪门爱人后，心里五味杂陈。
它让我又想在次动笔，完成当时未完成的故事...

我只是，想把感动带给别人。

还有，最近我很奇怪的想法哦。
好久没有的感觉，不只是好是坏。
难道会像她说的，我的心还在‘那里’？
但我只希望，这种感觉完全是个错觉。
我不希望，在这平静的日子里，我任何事来打扰自己。

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
9:33 PM

MOOD: HIGH.
LISTENING TO: Let It All Out - Miho Fukuhara


i think whoever up there*points to the sky* wants to punish me =.=(whatever god you believe in...)

alright, it had been sometime since i last posted about my daily life(but is there anyone who reads it??), so this was how i spent my weekend:

on saturday morning, i was woke up by mum right in the morning. hmm. apparently, she wants me to go jogging =A=. but having return home at 11:45pm the day before and my muscle cramps had not recovered, no way in hell(or the world) can i GO FOR THAT BLOODY JOGGING. she showed me that "I''m unhappy -.-" face and left, so i just went back to sleep.

i bet she was scolding me in her heart to the extent that i cant sleep(an assumption).
so i woke up, used kor's laptop chiong-ing manga and animes. at around 1pm, i slept.

i was awaken by my mum, but i ignored her and slept again.
then she came to wake me up again, and i ignored her and slept again.
then again.

FINALLY, i was told to wake up at 6pm =.=.
too lazy to eat/do chinese compo.
so, yeah. when Jo and Cindy was mugging hard in Suntec, i was sleeping... all day =___=;;;.


Sunday:
I'M SUCH A GOOD KID. I AM ONE. i woke up at 6:40am to fufill my promise. I WENT STADIUM FOR JOGGING AGAIN. WUHOOOO.
there was so many people that i'm so embarrassed by my slow speed(not really that slow).
i guess running just make me weak. i could only managed 3 rounds of brisk walk and 3 rounds of running =.=.
running... makes me weak(if you compared to the 9 rounds the previous time).

another thing: MUMMY IS SERIOUS ABOUT THIS. NFFFNFFF. SHE WANTS ME TO RUN AND GROW FAT SO MUCH.

at home.
vexed. irritated. upset.

so i went to the library to complete my composition =o=.
it helps, ya know. cause in the library... it's all books. BOOKS, mind you. what the Fhell can you do there besides studying ==?

AND HELL'YA, BECOS I WENT OUT, I FOUND HIM:



YES. THE ULTRA BIG BANAO THAT I HAD BEEN SEARCHING FOR(and even told sis to find him in japan). WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
P.S: it's exactly the same as my small one =__=. even the 2 faces.



i cant help but to camwhore with him -.-.

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会 梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜 就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是 你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是 你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯 完全的癒合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是 你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯 完全的癒合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下 你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

FYI, many know that i no longer listen to chinese songs, but i couldnt help it this morning cos listening to him just hurts.
ever since last year, i didnt really wrote any musshhhhy stuff here, but today, i couldnt help it.

well, i just happened to hear this song today. i didnt like listening to chinese/english songs cause i understand the language and the meaning of the song very much, and it will cause me to think about unnecessary stuff.

but after talking to Viq on saturday night, our conversation came running in my mind when i listened to this song. it was... something close to what i told her, and something close to what she commented. then only i noticed that what i told her was what is really happening, just that i always neglected my own feelings cause i was carried away by the life that i was living. "To laugh 'cause everyone elses is laughing too", is that it? nah, the laguhters are true, they came from the heart. am i imagining things, but the song is talking to me(puffffffff). i guess no one will understand what i'm talking about. that moment, i had a strong urge to call Viq. i wonder what she'll say when i told her abou this song. i think i relied on her a bit too much.

but i know, she cant tell me the answer, nor do myself.

Labels: lyrics, music, random, video, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
3:23 PM

so... i believed that everything ended?

all of our hardwork.

i'm having such a complicated feeling here.
it's vexation, it's disappointment.

thinking back, it was my own fault who choose not to go...
but what will happen if i go?
will anything changed?

i cant... write out what i'm feeling now -.-.
something is changing, in a bad way.
if you had compared it to a9... such things dont happen.

standing a distance away. it's back to square one again.


i shall keep all that i 'saw' as a secret.
not posting, not reviewing. just keeping.

hope that my eyes wont swell anymore.

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
8:15 AM

today was the most chaotic day in my life.
yea, I WENT G HUNTING.



my eyes are really swollen that i cant open them... ;_; oyasumi...

Labels: Gackt

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
8:55 PM

IM READING TSUBASA CHRONRICLES.
FYE IS DYING.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, THIS MANGA IS *SNIFFFSNIFFFF* T________________T.
I'M GONNA CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
4:07 PM

okay, lyrics!!
credits: http://community.livejournal.com/gazette_lyrics/




BEFORE I DECAY
(italic words is sang in Japanese)

This is the same as a game not having an end

Push the guys with incompetent mouths down with reality
Waste the ignorance that sets up arguments that achieve nothing
Before I Decay

Please abandon instinct
I was stuck in a loop of a vicious circle
It was a mistake to have entrusted you
I die at abnormal speed

This is the same as a maze not having an end
The unchangeable mentality of people

Only the rumor is splendid
Disappear with a sexual
You sold even us to protect oneself
You are powerless than anyone

Watch me…

So I can repeat it, should I laugh again?
So I can repeat it again...
I cannot laugh
Before I Decay

Please abandon instinct
I was stuck in a loop of a vicious circle
It was a mistake to have entrusted you
It was a mistake…


gosh, the japanese part is... powerful, with the english lyrics(although Ruki said that "There's a lot to translate"... but we understand english[lauhg].). i could finally understand the song with the full translation O____O. since Ruki said that he "writes lyrics with the things that happened around him", this song must be reflecting on how Ruki was betrayed by a friend in the past ._. .


Mayakashi


Mayakashi(Deception)


Sometimes I'm so hollow that my skin gets torn　　My throat feels rough
I am opening my eyes and take in that glamour　　so that I can slowly break apart

My doubts should have been untied ...
This dreariness that doesn't want to ask any questions
I am only embracing meaninglessness

The cherry blossoms that have forgotten their color are dancing　　They are not yet changing smoothly
It is not like I wanted anything　　so that I can forget

Because I knew of the betrayal
You made me stare at it until I slept
At this deep lie

I am only playing the helpless　　Conceit　　is turning around
I couldn't even see the reaching hand
The kisses were made in deception and the wounds were forgiven
When I noticed it, again there was no one here ...

In the downpouring tranquility I am not hoping for answers or the like
When this momentary escape ends I will pretend to now know anything

Only by laughing the blurred distance is
Too sad
At the times I stand in your way this narrow distance is
Too gentle and cold

Like the petals that are changing their color
If the time comes, please remember
Like the withering falling petals
Even if the time comes, please don't forget


i only noticed it now, but it seens that the whole ablum revolves around the theme "Decption/betrayal". i almost cried when i see the lyrics ;_;. this reminds me of Kare Uta, the melody and lyrics. i really love the songs that Ruki wrote. from this album, you can see how [Deception] is presented from different aspects/point of view. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH <3.

Labels: Before I Decay, lyrics, music, the gazette, youtube

「もう何処にも行かないよ... 此処にずっとずっと居るから。」
9:10 AM